Made A Decision

I made a decision, even though

it was probably already made;

but since I've decided to move

forward, past thoughts intrude

my present-day thinking.



I made a decision, even though it was

probably already made; but since

then, looking forward has lead me

back to reasons why I had yet do

to so.



I made a decision, even though it

was probably already made;

but since then, my heart pounds

through my chest; rest-filled nights

are quasi-sleepless, still...



I will not turn around.