Have You Ever?

This was written in the aftermath of a very turbulent year. This was
my first reflection upon how great things can go horribly wrong.
There are many lessons that a man may learn...this is just one of them.

Have you ever did so much, or said so little,
That the dream you wanted seemed to be out of touch?
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks,
And those intentions could change the life of the very ones you love.

No hugs, no kisses or well wishes can solve,
Or resolve the pain inflicted if you chose to speak...
Clearly divulging transgressions make you afraid to speak the truth
But do you really want a lie as the foundation of what you want so much?
That you need so much? That's so real you can touch?

Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed out of touch?
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks…
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed so real,
You could finally have something real and give something you can feel?

Has it ever been a time where you went too far?
Not knowing how to make right what you've done for so long;
Late nights, phone calls, efforts being misplaced,
The one you needed to be with was standing right in your face,
Now you long for the love that you pushed away.

You began hoping...now praying for those rainy days,
Because your new sunny days are not shining as bright--
Itching from your greener grass you can't sleep at night;
It looked good from where you stood, all pretty and tamed,
Until you got it for yourself and found out it just wasn't the same...

Now you're staying up late
Gotta work twice as hard,
Just to maintain and manage your newly acquired yard.
Hind sight is 20/20...you made your life hard;
Hind sight is 20/20...now look at your life.

Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed out of touch,
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks?
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed so real;
You could have something real and give something you can feel?