This is an abstract piece that I hope will generate many
ideas or questions as to what it is I'm speaking of. I enjoyed
writing this, for saying one thing several different ways is
as exciting to write as I imagine it is to read...Enjoy!
Seconds please, yes a little more;
Not just on one spot either, even it out
All the way around...I'm not shy about
It at all.
I know what I like and I have always known what
I've wanted; too bad for some, they misunderstood
that when I had others I was doing so out
of my own ignorance...silly isn't it? For someone to
feel that they know what's best for you, when they
themselves have not what makes them
Want more...Seconds please, yes a little more...because
when I figured out what I wanted, that made me want
other things. Contradiction maybe? Not quite, because
how else could I grow to appreciate how special, delectable,
unique, and amazingly wonderful what I know I wanted
really was if I'm not immersing myself within the confines of
what I know I couldn't possibly desire?
Still not following? Maybe that's a good thing. It's my
Mad-Hatter Matter-of-Fact Formula to ultimate bliss
and eternal peace, so now, as I sleep without a care, there's
only the calming realization that I now have what I wanted...
Seconds please, yes a little more...
I would take time to explain but my wise father told me
"That would be a waste of time,
Say what you mean and mean what you say,"
so I'm saying now, that there isn't enough time to spend with what I
have always wanted and as soon as I have what I have wanted,
I'm definitely ready for seconds;
Not because I'm greedy.
It's only sweet motivation to finish what I
have started, slowly, deliberately, purposefully,
enjoying each moment,
So that I may begin again...a sweet redundancy.
Fresh...warm...fulfilling...PERFECT FOR ME...
So, seconds please...yes a little more;
Not all in one place, spread it all around...I'm not shy about it at all...
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
I Haven't Written In A While
I haven't written anything in a while so I decided to write
about not writing. This took me about 10 minutes to get
out and again I will not edit it until maybe sometime later
if needed...thanks for reading all of the previous blogs and
please continue reading!!!
It's interesting that I haven't written anything since January.
I wonder if its because I've let my life become too busy or
if it's just a matter of feeling as though I don't have anything
to contribute to the world. Seems like a pretty long time not
to have anything to say. With all of the inspiring things around
me, from students to family and friends, strangers in the day,
nothing has stimulated my mind to generate a single thought.
I decided when I began this journey of a blog not to force myself
to write. So, as readers read my work, I guess its safe to say that
everything I write just flows out. I very seldom edit my work
once it is written, which I'm sure is a horrible habit to have as a
writer. What does happen is that I will receive comments and
questions about what I meant and then, I will go back and adjust
my words or phrases.
I dare not say that I'm some sort of Jay-Z type where it just comes
out flawlessly in one take. I generally have an idea or three in my
head as a work in progress and then one day it's like BAM! Guess
that's how God works!
Oh...Congrats to the Saints! New Orleans deserves this!
Sincerely,
A Lifetime Colts Fan
about not writing. This took me about 10 minutes to get
out and again I will not edit it until maybe sometime later
if needed...thanks for reading all of the previous blogs and
please continue reading!!!
It's interesting that I haven't written anything since January.
I wonder if its because I've let my life become too busy or
if it's just a matter of feeling as though I don't have anything
to contribute to the world. Seems like a pretty long time not
to have anything to say. With all of the inspiring things around
me, from students to family and friends, strangers in the day,
nothing has stimulated my mind to generate a single thought.
I decided when I began this journey of a blog not to force myself
to write. So, as readers read my work, I guess its safe to say that
everything I write just flows out. I very seldom edit my work
once it is written, which I'm sure is a horrible habit to have as a
writer. What does happen is that I will receive comments and
questions about what I meant and then, I will go back and adjust
my words or phrases.
I dare not say that I'm some sort of Jay-Z type where it just comes
out flawlessly in one take. I generally have an idea or three in my
head as a work in progress and then one day it's like BAM! Guess
that's how God works!
Oh...Congrats to the Saints! New Orleans deserves this!
Sincerely,
A Lifetime Colts Fan
Friday, January 22, 2010
I Can't Imagine
I am writing this without any attempt to
edit this piece, because if my emotion caused
an error, for now, I want it to be shown...as
this is my expression towards the tragedy that
has occurred in Haiti.
I can't imagine coping with such loss,
Separation through devastation for lack of
a better phrase, a Horrible price...
Images, video and Stories weaken the heart,
Realizing that Reality is Too Real to be True,
Hoping that for once, time Eludes us,
So that we can look back, instead of living
through the Nightmares of others...
A coward's words? Not quite...
an Empathetic Heart's Cry is more accurate;
Accepting what is real...Must be done,
so this is more of a vision of what we hope to be.
I can't imagine what Fills the mind
of those feeling Chosen to be left Behind,
Twisted Confused Hearts aching while
Hope resides in the souls of All,
The Spirit of Man, Woman, and Child
reaches out through song, speeches and
Bright Watered Eyes...
there is so much to do...
there are many ways to help...
there will be opportunities to lift others...
I can't imagine Not Helping...
I can't imagine Hearing Cries for help...
I can't imagine seeing someone being saved,
knowing there are countless numbers of others
that may not...I can't imagine Not Being Able to Do
Anything, But Wait...and Wait...and Wait...
And Scream...and Scream...and Scream...
I can't imagine....
I can't imagine what is in front of my eyes,
these Images on the screen, this Entire travesty...
I can't imagine what is real, from so far away...
in what is in front of Everyone...
I Can't Imagine...
edit this piece, because if my emotion caused
an error, for now, I want it to be shown...as
this is my expression towards the tragedy that
has occurred in Haiti.
I can't imagine coping with such loss,
Separation through devastation for lack of
a better phrase, a Horrible price...
Images, video and Stories weaken the heart,
Realizing that Reality is Too Real to be True,
Hoping that for once, time Eludes us,
So that we can look back, instead of living
through the Nightmares of others...
A coward's words? Not quite...
an Empathetic Heart's Cry is more accurate;
Accepting what is real...Must be done,
so this is more of a vision of what we hope to be.
I can't imagine what Fills the mind
of those feeling Chosen to be left Behind,
Twisted Confused Hearts aching while
Hope resides in the souls of All,
The Spirit of Man, Woman, and Child
reaches out through song, speeches and
Bright Watered Eyes...
there is so much to do...
there are many ways to help...
there will be opportunities to lift others...
I can't imagine Not Helping...
I can't imagine Hearing Cries for help...
I can't imagine seeing someone being saved,
knowing there are countless numbers of others
that may not...I can't imagine Not Being Able to Do
Anything, But Wait...and Wait...and Wait...
And Scream...and Scream...and Scream...
I can't imagine....
I can't imagine what is in front of my eyes,
these Images on the screen, this Entire travesty...
I can't imagine what is real, from so far away...
in what is in front of Everyone...
I Can't Imagine...
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Have You Ever?
This was written in the aftermath of a very turbulent year. This was
my first reflection upon how great things can go horribly wrong.
There are many lessons that a man may learn...this is just one of them.
Have you ever did so much, or said so little,
That the dream you wanted seemed to be out of touch?
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks,
And those intentions could change the life of the very ones you love.
No hugs, no kisses or well wishes can solve,
Or resolve the pain inflicted if you chose to speak...
Clearly divulging transgressions make you afraid to speak the truth
But do you really want a lie as the foundation of what you want so much?
That you need so much? That's so real you can touch?
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed out of touch?
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks…
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed so real,
You could finally have something real and give something you can feel?
Has it ever been a time where you went too far?
Not knowing how to make right what you've done for so long;
Late nights, phone calls, efforts being misplaced,
The one you needed to be with was standing right in your face,
Now you long for the love that you pushed away.
You began hoping...now praying for those rainy days,
Because your new sunny days are not shining as bright--
Itching from your greener grass you can't sleep at night;
It looked good from where you stood, all pretty and tamed,
Until you got it for yourself and found out it just wasn't the same...
Now you're staying up late
Gotta work twice as hard,
Just to maintain and manage your newly acquired yard.
Hind sight is 20/20...you made your life hard;
Hind sight is 20/20...now look at your life.
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed out of touch,
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks?
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed so real;
You could have something real and give something you can feel?
my first reflection upon how great things can go horribly wrong.
There are many lessons that a man may learn...this is just one of them.
Have you ever did so much, or said so little,
That the dream you wanted seemed to be out of touch?
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks,
And those intentions could change the life of the very ones you love.
No hugs, no kisses or well wishes can solve,
Or resolve the pain inflicted if you chose to speak...
Clearly divulging transgressions make you afraid to speak the truth
But do you really want a lie as the foundation of what you want so much?
That you need so much? That's so real you can touch?
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed out of touch?
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks…
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed so real,
You could finally have something real and give something you can feel?
Has it ever been a time where you went too far?
Not knowing how to make right what you've done for so long;
Late nights, phone calls, efforts being misplaced,
The one you needed to be with was standing right in your face,
Now you long for the love that you pushed away.
You began hoping...now praying for those rainy days,
Because your new sunny days are not shining as bright--
Itching from your greener grass you can't sleep at night;
It looked good from where you stood, all pretty and tamed,
Until you got it for yourself and found out it just wasn't the same...
Now you're staying up late
Gotta work twice as hard,
Just to maintain and manage your newly acquired yard.
Hind sight is 20/20...you made your life hard;
Hind sight is 20/20...now look at your life.
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed out of touch,
Never mind true intentions cause reality sucks?
Have you ever wanted a dream that seemed so real;
You could have something real and give something you can feel?
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Desires of Your Heart
This is something I wrote about 3 years ago
and it seems to fit situations in my life right now.
I dare not say that I know all the answers,
but this was definitely a moment of clarity
that I can appreciate and I hope my readers will too.
In my years on earth, I have experienced more than what some will ever know and few can fully understand. Yet, when I look at my life presently, I have found myself wondering what to do next. So, in my quest to find my place in the world, my heart's desire, my purpose...the little voice in my head revealed that a closer walk with God is necessary in this search. A very close friend of mine sent me a scripture via text that confirmed some thoughts of mine.Psalms 37:3-8 pretty much sums up what Christians need to do to find your heart's true desire, thus revealing the purpose of your life.
"Trust in the Lord and do good, Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you your heart's desires." I stop there, not because that is the most important part but to call attention to "your heart's desires". Our minds and emotions can become tangled up at times. This makes it fairly difficult to make sound choices and decisions. But, we have the Word of God that speaks directly to this. We must be mindful and trusting in God that His Will is the truth and our Light to shine our path out of any darkness that we may encounter.
Also, for those who seek, desire, make or need confirmation (I suppose I'm one because I found this scripture after reading this first one), John 1:3 basically says that everything is created through Him, so I suppose it only makes sense that when we feel lost, worried or may have important decisions to make, we should seek God with all of our heart.
One of my best friends told me that even though he is a Man of the Cloth, he is still a man. He told me that he still makes mistakes, he still falls short but his faith is with God. Now, this is not an excuse for anyone to do wrong…it is, however, an example of the reality of man. We are not perfect, but God's Grace & Mercy is everlasting.
I chose to share this because someone may need a little push or some confirmation with things that are going on in your life. I hope this helps…maybe I'll write more later…
and it seems to fit situations in my life right now.
I dare not say that I know all the answers,
but this was definitely a moment of clarity
that I can appreciate and I hope my readers will too.
In my years on earth, I have experienced more than what some will ever know and few can fully understand. Yet, when I look at my life presently, I have found myself wondering what to do next. So, in my quest to find my place in the world, my heart's desire, my purpose...the little voice in my head revealed that a closer walk with God is necessary in this search. A very close friend of mine sent me a scripture via text that confirmed some thoughts of mine.Psalms 37:3-8 pretty much sums up what Christians need to do to find your heart's true desire, thus revealing the purpose of your life.
"Trust in the Lord and do good, Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you your heart's desires." I stop there, not because that is the most important part but to call attention to "your heart's desires". Our minds and emotions can become tangled up at times. This makes it fairly difficult to make sound choices and decisions. But, we have the Word of God that speaks directly to this. We must be mindful and trusting in God that His Will is the truth and our Light to shine our path out of any darkness that we may encounter.
Also, for those who seek, desire, make or need confirmation (I suppose I'm one because I found this scripture after reading this first one), John 1:3 basically says that everything is created through Him, so I suppose it only makes sense that when we feel lost, worried or may have important decisions to make, we should seek God with all of our heart.
One of my best friends told me that even though he is a Man of the Cloth, he is still a man. He told me that he still makes mistakes, he still falls short but his faith is with God. Now, this is not an excuse for anyone to do wrong…it is, however, an example of the reality of man. We are not perfect, but God's Grace & Mercy is everlasting.
I chose to share this because someone may need a little push or some confirmation with things that are going on in your life. I hope this helps…maybe I'll write more later…
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Steadfast in My Position
Another day is gone, another impact attempt made.
It's all for the good of the world and my world is
brighter because I'm making an effort. There are
times where I take "nothing" and make it into
"something"...this is called a "teachable moment". In
order to do such a miraculous feat, I had to pay
attention and be aware of the opportunity. And I
do this everyday I enter my workplace...
I am a teacher.
I am a psychologist.
I am an investigator.
I am an interpreter.
I am a facilitator.
I am a hustler.
I am a teacher.
I am a realist.
I am a truth seeking, eyes wide open clean slate.
I am immovable.
I am determined.
I am a man with hope, desires and aspirations.
I am a dream come true for my ancestors.
I am remarkable.
I am a problem solver.
I am a mediator.
I am a poet, storyteller and comedian.
I am a teacher.
I am an iron fist.
I am a reluctant friend.
I am passionate.
I am fearless.
I am motivated.
I am reliable.
I am a motivator.
I am a fire starter.
I am a teacher.
I am angry.
I am sad.
I am disappointed.
I am loving.
I am caring.
I am daring.
I am the blame for things out of my control.
I am excited.
I am Fired Up! Ready to Go! (Thanks President Obama)
I am an observer.
I am a leader.
I am a lifetime learner.
I am an invaluable commodity.
I am more than I will ever know...
I am a teacher.
It's all for the good of the world and my world is
brighter because I'm making an effort. There are
times where I take "nothing" and make it into
"something"...this is called a "teachable moment". In
order to do such a miraculous feat, I had to pay
attention and be aware of the opportunity. And I
do this everyday I enter my workplace...
I am a soldier on the front line of a war between
the minds of the youth and the cold, heartless
world in which they will be propelled...hopefully
after they earn a high school diploma. Please do not
confuse this statement with an assumption that I
believe that a high school diploma is all the education
that is needed. I am a supporter of higher learning.
In addition, I am an opponent of classroom disruptions--
anything that impedes the ability of anyone from
learning. Sadly there are too many to count or name or
to effectively work around or through in some learning
environments. Still, I am steadfast in my position and I
wear my uniform proudly...
I am a teacher.
I am a psychologist.
I am an investigator.
I am an interpreter.
I am a facilitator.
I am a hustler.
I am a teacher.
I am a realist.
I am a truth seeking, eyes wide open clean slate.
I am impressionable.
I am immovable.
I am determined.
I am a man with hope, desires and aspirations.
I am a dream come true for my ancestors.
I am remarkable.
I am a problem solver.
I am a mediator.
I am a poet, storyteller and comedian.
I am a teacher.
I am an iron fist.
I am a comforter.
I am a reluctant friend.
I am passionate.
I am fearless.
I am motivated.
I am reliable.
I am a motivator.
I am a fire starter.
I am a teacher.
I am angry.
I am sad.
I am disappointed.
I am loving.
I am caring.
I am daring.
I am the blame for things out of my control.
I am excited.
I am Fired Up! Ready to Go! (Thanks President Obama)
I am an observer.
I am a leader.
I am a lifetime learner.
I am an invaluable commodity.
I am more than I will ever know...
I am a teacher.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Free
The following expression of ideas is an interpretation of
what it feels like to live in the mind of a someone
who's thoughts race a thousand miles a minute.
What others would interpret as
chaotic, I experience as a state of peace in my mind.
Swimming in my frame of mind, my words align me,
Freeing up the space in my mind--
my mind being free; Living in this place and time,
the solitude of my mind, Freeing up my space--
I'm being me...
I created my creative creativeness,
Never the less, and least of all my living has never been limited,
Focused on what really didn't make sense
Like making sense out of what will wake you;
I began my adventures, I've invented different ways to venture through the waves--
I am a cruise ship.
Over paved roads, rocky, muddy, stormy or hazy,
Contemplating this emancipation, maybe I'm being too heavy--
I move steady,
Slow is just an opinion-an optimistic observation of ocular interpretation...
Playstations aren't the cause but effect of the box,
Not imitating art, not representing anything except what its not--reality.
My minds creating an abundance of what not to say;
Pull me back to the basic like patches on a quilt,
Place me to the side and see what my history built,
I'm looking to the side and see what I built--a legacy.
what it feels like to live in the mind of a someone
who's thoughts race a thousand miles a minute.
What others would interpret as
chaotic, I experience as a state of peace in my mind.
Swimming in my frame of mind, my words align me,
Freeing up the space in my mind--
my mind being free; Living in this place and time,
the solitude of my mind, Freeing up my space--
I'm being me...
I created my creative creativeness,
Never the less, and least of all my living has never been limited,
Focused on what really didn't make sense
Like making sense out of what will wake you;
I began my adventures, I've invented different ways to venture through the waves--
I am a cruise ship.
Over paved roads, rocky, muddy, stormy or hazy,
Contemplating this emancipation, maybe I'm being too heavy--
I move steady,
Slow is just an opinion-an optimistic observation of ocular interpretation...
Playstations aren't the cause but effect of the box,
Not imitating art, not representing anything except what its not--reality.
My minds creating an abundance of what not to say;
Pull me back to the basic like patches on a quilt,
Place me to the side and see what my history built,
I'm looking to the side and see what I built--a legacy.
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